Greater minds than mine believe the coronavirus, aka COVID-19, will be with us for a long time. Even if we could have one or more vaccines ready by tomorrow, it would take years to produce, distribute and vaccinate about 8 million people provided we only need to be vaccinated once and longer to deal with anti-vaxers. Since I have been single for a while and no one is getting any younger, I am going to have to put myself out there. Just as the pandemic has revealed cracks in the financial foundations that money touches, I have noticed financial and emotional cracks in people around me.
Before March 15th, 2020, everyone I knew (who wasn’t retired) had a job. Life was good at best and okay at worst. Things have changed. People who seemed like they had it together are falling apart fast. One guy used to have a mind of his own doesn’t. The mindless has also become the voiceless. It drives me crazy when he let’s his friend answer for him. Someone didn’t pay their rent. Someone quit their job. Someone always wants to be alone and doesn’t answer their phone for anyone–for days. Everyone is drinking the same amount or less so that is good. No one mentioned does it for me. Naturally someone makes, or well made, we wonder.
He has been around for a while yet nothing ever happens. Life is busy or one of us is going out with someone else. Then there are the other people he has dated. The first has class, the second trashed me every chance she got and hurriedly moved to Vancouver years ago. Someone somewhere always somehow still blames me for that which is ridiculous. If I had that much power wouldn’t I be full ACTRA or above the line? I know of the third yet we never met. The fourth (that I know of) has repeatedly shown me she is crazier than the second which scares me as she is still around. And so is he, kind of.
One of his friends lives close by and I see him a lot without trying. Last week he was walking in a part of town I have never seen him in which was weird. Almost as weird as when in February, this guy called my name from his car as I crossed four lanes of traffic. As he stopped, I crossed back wondering how he recognized me all bundled up with my hair in a messy bun. Towards the end of our conversation I said, “Yea, I don’t think she is getting it,” she being the fourth. I wanted to give him some examples of the crazy things she has done while we are at work. But I didn’t. He probably knows.
And who would have known that on Friday October 23, 2020, as I stood on Dundas Street facing east, I would see Jason Momoa cycling west. The second I saw him I knew I couldn’t date that guy. Before anyone gets any strange ideas, this is why. As I remember, Jason Momoa knew at a very young age that he wanted Lisa Bonet in his life. And she is. They have been together for 14 years and are happily married with two children. When people know what and who they want, they go after it. I need someone who knows what they want. And I don’t think this guy does. And that’s okay. One day someone will. Until then I will keep putting myself out there, even during a pandemic. Anyway…
As he rode up the street and past me, I said, “Hi Jason Momoa!” Hopefully I will be booked to work on See again. It has amazing sets, even better acting and a great storyline! And the star of See, is Jason Momoa!
Here is a link to Behind the Blog. Today’s post is called, So I Gained Some Weight. And?
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