Hi Everyone,
The complete title of this blog is, “And the Authority of My Life is Me!” This is what I mean.
On Friday I was waiting to do the most natural thing known to mankind. As I was waiting I saw someone from my past who has had a lot to say about me. That was when I decided to set the record straight and write this blog. I also shut her up for the rest of her life. Here we go…
Relationships:
My and My Ex–Because we have known each other for over 20 years, we have a history. Up until November of 2014 two things connected us. One was the fact that he was my first great love and he says I was his. (Awww) The second is something hard to explain because it is very different. When I finally told him, we checked dates and connected the dots. It is not something that most people would understand, yet he did because he knows me. Now that connection is with someone else and he knows it. That’s all I am saying about my ex.
Workplace Romance–The last time I had a workplace romance, intimate with someone, was over 20 years ago. I am serious. About two years ago, there were two nights when I did mess around with someone from work but we were fully clothed the whole time. Last year I did go on two dates with someone, talked on the phone and sent text messages to each other but that’s it. This year, well…
The Drug Addict–For someone as against drugs as I am, I did date a someone who was addicted to several. He was an amazing guy who was also an alcoholic and a chain smoker. He was also a single father. Despite all of the time we spent together over the years, we never had sex.
The Former Drug Addict–I did date a former drug addict. He was fresh out of rehab and not ready for anything.
Psychics–The first time I saw a psychic was when I was 18 and it was during one of those department store galas which I was not looking for. The gravity of her words as she read my palms jarred me. But it was what she said that has kept me strong, alive. I am serious. If it were not for her, I would have committed suicide several times over. Her words are the ONLY reason I am alive and sober in every way. Again, I am serious. Anytime I felt like giving up, and there were lots of times, I remembered what she said. I also remember thinking, “It gets worse.” That is probably why I paid such close attention to what she said.
There were other psychics at the gala. The second and last one, looked sad as she spoke. I may have been young but her words did trigger a memory from a year before. I still cling to both. Over the years I have seen other psychics and there are two things that they tell me that are always the same. Last year one told me that the men in life weren’t man enough for me. She was right. I stopped seeing and thinking of them and my life has been better.
Reading--If it were not for my love of reading, I may not have heeded the psychics words. Reading as many non-fiction books, including memoirs, as I have has helped me make sense of life. I understand, get a lot of things.
Writing–I did write a book titled, “A. Rebel’s Soul: A Twist on the Lens of Life,” in 2007. Even though there is a great back story as to how that book came about, I have not promoted it. For anyone who is interested, it is available in trade paper back and e-book format.
December 2014–A YouTube video answered a 30 year question. I finally understand, get it.
February 25th, 2015–This day is hard to describe because it encompasses so much. It was a turning point in a lot of lives. If it weren’t for my reading all of those books and watching all of the documentaries I would never have found the YouTube video and my life would be a lot different and not in a good way.
The person who triggered this blog–In 2013 she tried to “flip me to the other team.” I don’t know why she thought she could, or why she thought I was “flippable” but either way, she was WAY OFF the MARK. I am a heterosexual and I am pretty sure I will always will be one. I can honestly say that because when I was 16 or 17, (it is so hard to remember these things when my birthday is in the summer) a 34 year old female friend of mine at the time tried. When I resisted, she did not persist. Now, if I, at 16 or 17, did not join the “other team,” when I was young and very vulnerable, why would I in my forties. I wouldn’t it. Since this person insisted on persisting, even after I told her several times that I was heterosexual and had to sternly tell her, “I like cock!” she still didn’t let up. The only thing left for me to do, because we worked together, was write a blog. I think I called that one, “Cat Fishing,” but I can’t be sure. Either way, she finally left me alone. Sure things at work were a bit tricky, but things are better.
Who could “Flip Me“–One day as I passed one of my friends counters at work, he showed me a picture of himself in drag. He did everything himself. When I saw the picture, I said, “Holy shit, (his name) your HOT!! If I weren’t in drag, you could “flip” me! You look amazing!” He smiled and gave me a hug as I repeated the above. “I am serious.” In the past I have told him several times that I wished he was straight. He’s amazing. So the only person who could flip me, would be him in drag. 🙂
The Most Natural Thing Known to Mankind–This blog came about because I was at a train station with only one washroom and waiting for my turn. Whoever was in there was taking a long time so I stood off to the side and watched TV. While waiting, I saw her. She was with a man. I am guessing that they were dating because of their body language. They walked past me, she went to the bathroom door, pulled on it, made a face, knocked on the door and stood there. When the door opened, she started to step in as I said, “I’m next in line for the bathroom, (her name).” Her mouth dropped, and I entered the bathroom. Before anyone thinks I took my time in there making her wait much longer than need be, I didn’t. That would be cruel. Besides the woman already has issues, I was not going to add urinary track to her list. When I left the bathroom she was gone. I guess she didn’t have to pee that much after all. And she is probably not a lesbian. Just someone who decided to make a life choice by trying out for the other team.
Questions–If anyone has any questions, or would like me to clear things up for them about any of the above or anything else, please feel free to ask me. I will give you an honest answer.
As usual there is more I could add, yet I am running behind, so that’s it for today.
Thank you for reading, A. Rebel’s Rant! ;D
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