Hi Everyone,
There are a lot of reasons as to why I haven’t blogged, yet here is one reason I decided to start again. This is what I mean.
On Wednesday morning I woke up a few seconds before my cell phone rang at 5:48 am. Wanting more sleep, I rejected the call. Although I thought about blocking the number, I didn’t. And a good thing too.
For whatever reason I woke up at 2:30 am Thursday morning. Two minutes later my phone rang but this time I answered. “Hello,” I said. There was a pause. I think I said hello again yet I am not sure. At some point, the caller, who sounded like she had a few beers under her bra (she was definitely on something), asked, “Is this Anna?” to which I said, “Yes. Who is this?” My answer was no answer. The person hung up. Wide awake, I realized who it could be. Let’s just call her CJ.
CJ has more of a history with me than I do with her because the only time I think about her, notice her when she inserts herself into my life. And that takes time, energy and thought. In my experience, CJ thinks a lot of things, and few of them are good. Like the times I would go to work on set and she would sit as close to me as possible, walk 2 inches behind me off the shuttle bus and continue to follow me through background holding, snicker and then burst out laughing with her friend when I stumbled–twice. Naturally there is more, but I don’t want to relive it, and do you really want to read it? As I said, I am of the opinion that CJ thinks a lot of things and few of them are good.
And she must have thought something was happening when a number came up on a certain cell phone. It belongs to someone we both know, someone who has been entering and exiting my life about a year before they met. Timing, however, is everything. At that time, I was rebuilding my life in more ways than I want to remember. His life wasn’t perfect either. But a lot has changed. Both of our lives are better.
Is that why we have been communicating again? Maybe. It’s not like we communicate with each other a lot. In fact one of the reasons I haven’t allowed myself to get close to him for the past four years, is CJ. In my experience, CJ is sneaky. Sneaky people, in my opinion, are desperate and desperate people are always dangerous. Look what she does to me at work when there are literally over a hundred people who could witness what she does. If she is going to do any of the above and more in front of them, what is she capable of doing if she every got me alone? Bottom line is that she has and still scares me. She also has very “supportive” friends who I also see on set. Who wants to be a part of that? Is that why he reached out to me?
I don’t know because I am not him. All I know is that CJ has not been the only person in his life for the past five years and this is not the first time we have reached out to each other. He has had other, in my opinion, more serious relationships than whatever he had or has going on with CJ.
For anyone who is curious, I used the screenshot of the phone calls I received because I want and need whoever called to know I am not going to put up with any of their BS. This is especially true if the person is CJ. Since it is easy to deny ones wrongdoings, it is harder to deny facts. I have a new phone number too.
Thank you for reading, A. Rebels’s Rant! It is nice to be back. ;D
P.S.
If it wasn’t for other people creating drama in my life, it would be boring!
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